The photo you see above is one of the first photos I took of my adult doll collection. I took that photo in the late 1990’s. The dolls pictured are all Cabbage Patch Kids, made by a variety of different doll companies who at one time or another were granted the CPK license. Babyland General Hospital is in fact a real place, located in the very real world of Cleveland, Georgia, USA. You can find out more about it it by clicking here. Babyland General Hospital is where the Cabbage Patch Kids were first conceived as an idea, by creator Xavier Roberts, and it’s also where the Cabbage Patch Kids were first adopted out to happy new “parents.” When I took this photo I was letting my imagination have fun with the idea of my doll collection working together as a group to steal my car and run away back to their ancestral home of Babyland General Hospital.
Most of the time I’ve had an adult doll collection this photo only really reminded me of when I began collecting dolls in earnest as an adult. Here lately, this photo has taken on a new meaning for me. The dolls in this photo know what they want, and are taking action to make it happen. These days this photo reminds me that I am in control of my life more than I sometimes give myself credit for.
In all my years of pursuing and living the writing life I have met with obstacles. Some came from other people. Far more of them have come from inside my own self. This has also been true of my mental health issues. Doctors can only help you with things you are going through that you can articulate to them in a coherent way that helps them find a solution for you. I have more control in both of these areas of my life than I always realize or give myself credit for.
When I look at this photo now, of my doll collection taking their futures into their own hands to make the thing happen that they most desire I am reminded of myself. I can do this too. I can continue to write. I can complete my unfinished manuscripts. I can tell myself those stories, through to their conclusions. I can also take the best care of myself, physically and mentally as I possibly can. I can make these choices. I can make my life a writing life to the extent that I wish by making it happen. All I have to do is show up and put words on the page. To keep my mental health in as good a condition as I can I can choose to follow doctors orders, and make healthy choices in all areas of my life. I am in the driver’s seat in my life.
I feel very grateful today to the members of my doll collection from the past who are pictured above in the photo at the top of this page. Thank you all for reminding me that every day I am living I get to make the choice to make things in my life happen that I wish to experience.